It's almost hard to believe that there is only one month left in my pregnancy. Time seems to be flying by. And even though the passage of time gets us closer to meeting baby Isabel, I am not in a rush. I am content with everything going at the pace it ought to go. I find myself trying to mentally prepare for all the late night feedings, lack of sleep, lack of time to read my Bible and attempting to read my Bible while nursing and having trouble concentrating. I rather like the schedule I have going now. But I know that it is about to change. Big time! She will be worth it though, in every way. When I see mothers with their newborn babies I find myself gazing on them a little longer than I normally would. I think of Isabel, and look forward to holding her very soon. I wonder what she will look like and what unique qualities God has given her.
I guess in a sense I have already "met" this little one. I carry her around inside me wherever I go. I feel her kicks, so powerful and strong, one time she nearly sent the notebook I had resting on my belly flying! Lately, I have felt her strongest movements when I lay down to go to sleep and for a little while we have our "special little time" together. While feeling her movements within and without I have been in awe. I have said "Hello little one" despite myself...can she hear me? I have gotten teary-eyed just to think that a child, a soul, God's marvelous creation is within my womb. It is positively amazing.
Some of my children have pretended that they are pregnant too. Little Clara arches her back, sticks out her tummy and says "Look Mommy, I'm pregnant!" I smile and say "Maybe someday Clara, if God wills it." It's kind of funny, but even Javi wants to get in on all the excitement and have a baby in his tummy too. Sorry Javi, God has given this privilege to women only! :) Kids are so funny, you wonder how much the younger ones understand. I'm pretty sure Manny has no idea what's coming! Still we are all very excited and looking forward to welcoming her into our family. Earlier this evening, I was sitting on the couch with my children all around me trying for the chance to feel one of her amazing movements. They were not to be disappointed. Isabel was in the mood for an amazing gymnastic performance! Mother, sisters and brothers laughed with joy as we marveled at her very real presence within my belly. "Thank you Lord, she is a blessing from you."
Though I haven't looked into her precious little face yet
or caressed her sweet, smooth baby skin
or held her close to my heart,
meeting her every need and responding to her cries
I love her already. I will always love her.
Sweet baby Isabel.
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